One day I attended a Christian Christmas gathering. I usually do not like going to church or meeting but parents forced me and I honored them. Interesting enough I saw a woman and began to have feelings for her. I managed to get her number and I decided to contact her on the 1st of January (few days after I got the number).
So I called her on the first of Jan. To my surprise, she started introducing me to Jesus, she told me about Jesus which I never heard in any church. Something attracted me to listen to her. I lost my self every time I listened to her talk about Jesus. And everyday she would ask me-
Did you read your bible?
Did you pray?
How many chapters did you read?
The passion she had for Jesus seeped into me but a part of me only listened to what she said because I fancied her, so I was doing It hypocritically just to impress her or get close to her and NOT to GOD.
Few months later, I had a dream and in the dream I saw my self in heaven, I was seated in heaven and right in front of me appeared a manly structure. He was walking towards me and I was trying to see His face but His face was 10 times brighter than sun.
I managed to look at his hands and his hands had piercing on them and then I knew that was Jesus Christ. He came closer to me and spoke to me
MY SON JOSEPH, WHAT DO YOU WANT?” I was astonished
I said, “Lord I don’t deserve your compassion, I have done so many destructive things. How could you ask me?”
He asked me again- “MY SON JOSEPH, WHAT DO YOU WANT?” I said “Lord there are so many good Christians in this world who are following you whole heartedly and there are so many men of God who are serving you, why don’t you go and ask them? I don’t even deserve to be a Christian!”
Then the Lord asked me again -“MY SON JOSEPH, WHAT DO YOU WANT?”
Because the Lord asked me thrice so I answered Him and asked for 3 things:
1) Lord I want to love you from the bottom of my heart, (give me a heart that can love you devotedly).
2) Lord I want to give my self to you completely without holding back anything.
3) Lord if I want to do the ministry I want to do the ministry like the Apostle Paul.
After the Lord heard this He said “IT IS DONE, IT IS FINISHED”.
Then I woke up from my dream and for the very first time in my life I knelt down and cried like a baby for one hour. The reason why I cried is because Jesus accepted me regardless of my sinful life. He loved me like I was blameless and sinless.
The 2nd reason why I cried is because the love of Jesus Christ fell on my heart and my rocky stony heart transformed into a heart of flesh.
That day I made a commitment to my self and a Covenant with God. I said “I will not do the ministry for her or for fame because there are number of ways to make money and to become famous. I don’t want to use ministry as platform to make money or to become famous, I want to make Jesus famous.
I WILL ONLY DO THE MINISTRY TO GLORIFY YOUR HOLY NAME.”
And this is how my journey began with me serving the Lord.